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16 Years Clean: The Struggles and Triumphs

August 8, 2025 | by HT Alexander

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So I have been extremely busy, thanks to my full time gig and just life in general. Last weekend was a bit of an adventure, took off on Friday and wound up in a couple of historic locations in PA, one was a bust or at least didn’t live up to the potential hype I saw on line, and the other was interesting. The following day we headed to WV, Harpers Ferry to be exact, a place we frequent as it is pretty cool. The day was good, our little pup was happy as she came along.

My work week has been hellacious, each day it seems that I keep getting more meeting added to what I have to do, no fun there. Some of my days are filled with at least half meetings now. And that number is growing. Still not happy about the current circumstances with my job and the fact that I had to take that cut in pay, so I have spent an ample amount of time looking for a new job that pays at least what I was making or more than what I was making. Though I have managed to work things so that the lower pay works for us at some point it might stop working for us especially if I can’t generate any additional dollars from my side stuff.

I have been doing a lot of work in the gym as I am still trying to get my body fat level down to 10% or under, and I am close, currently at 17.6% which is the lowest its been in a long time. Still sporting the dad bod of course but hey I think for my age I am doing far better than most that is for sure. The hardest part is trying to come up with a good workout routine that fits my schedule and gets me the necessary volume without killing myself. I am trying something new for a few weeks in terms of time, 15 – 20 minute workouts that are fairly minimal but still do the job. Not sure at this point how it is going to work though, doesn’t seem like enough. So I am also planning something that allows me to work the full body over the course of a week and splitting the body up to 5 separate workouts focusing on 12 – 15 sets per body part, I feel in the end that might be a bit better for me than anything I have been doing.

Another big thing upcoming, 9 August marks 16 years clean and sober for me, another year down, the next year to go. I would love to say that after 15 years being sober is easy but it isn’t, some days are hard as all get out. I honestly do not think that will change but hey I just keep going one day at a time. The biggest thing that continues to be a thing, is feeling’s, no one is there to tell you that they come back over time, and some days you get more than others, and its hard because the drink/drug was mostly used to cover those up and completely numb everything. So some times it rough having to deal with it.

I am also still working on my art stuff, but that has been just as difficult recently because I haven’t had anytime to do any more painting, though I have an unfinished piece which I am still working on getting done, I started it months ago, and haven’t yet finished it. I am going to try and work on it over the weekend if I can manage to get some time. That is something I need to make more time for as well, most especially want to get my figure drawing ability back, I have tons of reference material to really learn it as best as possible, so that is also something I have to start setting aside time for on the daily. And of course writing, that I have been able to get a bit more of done at least trying to post regularly on my websites, to the tune of at least once per week. But with the writing I am going to focus on mostly horror and also short romance, one because its my favorite and the other because I think it might generate some additional income once I can start posting it for sale on Amazon and other platforms.

Well this will be it for now.
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