Laziness abounds…

Yes, I have been lazy the last few days in terms of posting. I haven’t even posted my daily workouts, which I have done pretty much every day since the last time I posted a few days ago.

Yesterday’s I would call epic, just did Military Presses but finished with the final set of about 12 total at 130 x 2, which I would consider being damn good as that is about 60% of my body weight and I was only shooting for my final to be about 50% of my body weight.

I have to make it a point to post a lot more often, just to get things out of my head that get in there and drive me nutty. That should technically have me writing all day long every single day though, so maybe that totally won’t work, but at least once or twice a day for sure from now on.

So one thing on my mind which has me conflicted is something to do with religion, you see back when I was younger I was more or less force fed Catholicism up to the age of about 16 when I could then choose, and I quickly turned away from it in an opposite direction. First turning towards Laveyan Satanism, and then Wicca, then Paganism and back to Laveyan Satanism and finally to Luciferianism. Now these last two aren’t much different from one another and they both more or less have the same concept, that you are your own god, and there is no belief in a heaven or hell or a god and or devil. But now as time has gone by I find myself in conflict over my beliefs, and keep coming back to is there actually a God, is there a Devil, is there a Heaven and Hell? I know deep fucking questions! There is a part of me that now looks at things in terms of if I can have God in my life on my terms and not the way it was force fed to me, then maybe I could allow myself those beliefs again. Part of me sees it, but then I want to stomp it when it pops into my head. Maybe time to consider it again rather than stomping it out. Not sure where that will go, because there are plenty of days I can’t wrap my head around it, but who knows where I will end up with that.

OK, deep subject taken care of. This weekend was fun, went to the range, did some shooting, and that is always fun and a great way to do stress relief. Workouts are next best thing. Other fun stuff, I got laid this weekend too, always nice when that happens. And just to toss this out there I am reading about 5 different books, most of them are all around 50% complete, so I might write some reviews on them when I am done.

OK, all for now. More later, I hope.

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